Begin Again

"I don't have anything deep for you right now..."

Each day the sun rises is a new opportunity to begin again.

Wish I could understand why it has taken me 2 months to get this post written. I drafted a post in my notebook, had a plan, but had not followed through with that plan. When I finally chose to sit down and write, the draft I wrote didn't feel to hold weight anymore, so I started over. However, a lot has been going on and when I do think about writing, it's as though I don't have the energy. So, here I am, trying again. I'm here to begin again.

Begin again rather than pick up where we left off. Would it have been best if I picked up where we left off? Maybe so, but, that would have old habits wrapped in a present moment. When I started this blog, I wanted to write a post every week, unfortunately that became unsustainable. I haven't yet got a plan for how we will be moving forward, but, I needed to come here and write this post. It's a start. It's the start.

At least 3 weeks ago a friend of mine messaged and asked me about my posts, and my blogs. She wanted to know where they are. It had been either that early morning, or the night before I was thinking about getting back to my blog, so to receive her message was confirmation that I had to move my fingers and make a return.

I don't have anything deep for you right now, I just have this. I'm here to start again. I will make a plan, follow through with it, but right now, I am being present for me. I'm showing up for myself as a reminder that this isn't as hard as it seems. This wall that has somehow been built each day my mind has not put lines together for my blog, or an article, I'm able to break it down through showing up here.

I guess I have spent time overthinking things. Having not written in such a long time, I may have spent more time dwelling on the fact I have not written. In that time, I have watched others as they write, as they share, and reminded myself that I have a blog, yet did nothing about it. So here I am, doing something about it.

Promises to Myself

I will write a thought and share it. I do not have to overcomplicate it. I do not need to always have a big spiritual meaning behind it. The most important thing is to share my thoughts.

I will do this once a week. I will spend the time to write my thoughts. I will spend the time sharing my thoughts. One thought weekly will lead to my consistency.

My writing will be a way of me showing up for myself. I enjoy reading, but I enjoy writing also. I will not allow it to become my lost art.

Prayer

Lord, as I get to the end of this article, a broken and contrite servant, seeking your forgiveness, bless the person who has taken the time out to read today's article. I thank you for them oh God. It's not because of anything good I have done why I am able to do this, it's all You and for that I am thankful. Please continue to remind us to show up for ourselves, help us to be present in the moment, and while we do that, may we be able to acknowledge You in the midst of it all. Let us not lose ourselves to the hustle and bustle of life, instead, help us to slow down, enjoy your creation, and embrace Your presence in all things, in Jesus' name I pray. Amen. Thank You

Friend, thank you for stopping by. Thank you for showing up for me. Thank you for still being here though I had a period of being lost in the shadows of life.

God bless you.

Careen